July 21st, 2008
i know thtere’s more to do but I can thinks of is right now….(1c.5a….2;30a)
what else do i want to do: there’s more, just can’t think straight right now… (.5a,1c,…12)
another thing I’d like to do: flash a bartender to get their attention. did that one last night. husband wasn’t too thrilled, but not - not too thrilled so whatever… (1c,.5a…1045p)
Things I want to do: get a tattoo - I’ve got one in mind, it’s roses and a turtle (signifying my kids and my husband). I just have to figure out where I want to put it. (2c,1t,.5a - 915p)
It’s that time of summer where we have very few kids in the house. They are all away at their other parents for a week or more. I miss them. (1b,1c,1t,1t,1u…8p)
so next time, i am going to take at least 10 clonazepam with alot more alcohol and at least 5 ambien. I just want to go to sleep. I’m getting my things in order now. It’s getting easier to not worry about my kids, but at the same time, I am worried my husband won’t give them the love they deserve. I’m scared for them, but I don’t want to go on anymore.
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